Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Thinking and Looking Up

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The Robin is the One
That interrupt the Morn
With hurried - few - express Reports
When March is scarcely on -
The Robin is the One
That overflow the Noon
With her cherubic quantity -
An April but begun -
The Robin is the One
That speechless from her Nest
Submit that Home - and Certainty
And Sanctity, are best
Emily Dickinson

After the morbid but funny post I wrote yesterday, I awoke this morning and forced myself to look upwards. What inspired me more was to see my first bird of the day, a Robin - the sign of Spring arriving and perhaps a new beginning.

I came to two conclusions for myself today. First, greet the birds in the morning. That’s when they are most active and brave. Second, make time everyday to feel at peace and smile, as I'm responsible for my own happiness.


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I never tire of bluebirds. I know this is Millie, and next comes Johnny. Yeah, I’m on the verge of being a cuckoo, but I love these birds.


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and heeeeere’s……….JOHNNY!


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I postponed my budget meeting today until tomorrow. Guess what? I still won’t be ready but that’s alright because no one else will be ready, either. I’m not going to lie awake at night and worry anymore. There’s just too much going on right now, the workload is overwhelming for many of us, and I need to study for my “Whodunnit” trial tomorrow. But I did make time for a long stroll around the campus today and visited places I haven’t seen before. I thought the sun’s reflection on the pines were pretty.


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The Forensics team has a pig pen at the base of the campus and I’ve heard about it but never saw it with my own eyes. This is where dead pigs are caged for observations on body decomposition, flies and maggots. Sad, but true. I’m glad there were no pigs today but soon, when the weather warms, they’ll be there.



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I’m not a plant expert but I think this is a Rose of Sharon that’s hidden on the back of the campus. What a shame that it’s hidden from view! I’ll visit it more often. While I was looking around in these hidden areas, I decided that I won’t let the injustices and inconsistencies in the office make my eye twitch anymore. For my own sake, I’ll look the other way and concentrate on my own business and learn to say, “No” to all of the invitations for help I receive that cramp my style. For most women, saying “No” is a difficult decision to make.



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There was a wide variety of birds at the feeder tonight when I got home and many of them were my favorites. Ten minutes later, I saw they were gone, and the freeloaders were “hanging out” like teenagers at a burger joint. Just sitting there, hogging the space. But I forced a congenial “smile and nod”…


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Will this clear sunset resemble my thoughts and attitude in the morning? I hope so. But already, I gritted my teeth tonight while Michael sat at the computer when I have a post to finish before American Idol airs. Note to self: get your own computer. Am I fooling myself throughout this post? Probably. I’ll be back to a weekly rant in six days - a gentler and kinder one. :o)

15 comments:

Lynne said...

Mary- I just love you! Your two conclusions are words to live by. I know this is getting old, but I cannot wait to meet you at Cape May. You are one smart cookie!

NatureWoman said...

Oh I love Robins and can't wait to hear them again here soon. For now I'm happy to hear Cheer Cheer Cheer and Chick-a-Dee-Dee-Dee.
I love your outlook on your work - if I can only adopt that and stick to it too I would feel so much less stressed!
Here's Johnny cracked me up right out loud!
I love the trip through your school's woods - except that pig pen thing.
And the sun scene is gorgeous!
Oh Mary you need your own computer definitely. I love a laptop the best. Then you can go anywhere you want in your home.
Please keep telling us about your bewds!

Cathy said...

I'm with Lynne - I love you too! Don't you dare get kinder and gentler - your moxie makes us laugh and, I suspect, keeps you afloat. Bluebirds and Robins - Ah . . . a distant dream for me, but reassuring that they may be on their way to a neighborhood near us.

Body Soul Spirit said...

Way to bounce back! The last photo is especially nice. Get yourself a laptop with wireless internet. Best thing we did in this house.
Ruth

Annie in Austin said...

Mary, from the looks of the twigs and buds, and if the petals are unfolding now, it seems more likely that the hidden tree is a saucer Magnolia rather than a Rose of Sharon.
Both of your conclusions would be good for me, too !

Annie at the Transplantable Rose

Susan Gets Native said...

Moxie. That is exactly right.
I adore your Non-kind and Non-gentle ways.
I'm with Lynne...meeting you will ROCK!

LauraHinNJ said...

I agree with Annie in Austin - magnolia. I have a star magnolia that I've been trying to get a nice pic of for years - yours is just perfect. I love the velvety feel of the buds - did you touch them? Oh and they have a nice scent too!

Can I join in the love fest?

;-)

Laurie said...

Love the photos, love the pearls of wisdom. Thank you, as always, you brightened my day (or night).

Jayne said...

It goes back to what we know to be true... many times we can't control the situation, but we CAN control how we respond to it. Bravo to you Mary for just not letting it control how your day goes! Love the photos of the robin and of the bluebirds. Have a lovely day ahead.

Mary said...

Lynne, back at ya!

Pam, we just gave away a Dell desktop in good condition. Now I regret it.

Cathy, I can only *try* to be gentler and kinder. It's not easy.

Ruth, I need to get *something*. Michael browses for golf gadgets while I have work to do!

Annie, I knew you would know what I was seeing! Thanks! I'll keep an eye on that Magnolia, for sure.

Susan, YOU are the definition of moxie!

Laura, I'll photograph it in a week or so and see how it grows.

Laurie, it's easy to throw around the wisdom but it's hard to act wisely sometimes.

Jayne, yeah, self control is always a challenge!

To all, you are best. Love ~

Liza Lee Miller said...

Hang in there, baby! Working to be kinder and gentler is never wasted effort. And, learning to say no . . . that's important work. But you are so smart to know that getting out and taking a little walk in nature is a great way to break through the crap that surrounds us so often.

Dorothy said...

Hi Mary I don't have a blog but I found you through Julie's, and I'm so glad I did. Your pictures are wonderful, your moxie is inspiring, and I see myself so many times when you're talking about your job. I sure can identify with you when it comes to co-workers and bosses.
Anyway, I am a new birder, but just wanted to say 'hi' and tell you how much I look forward to your blog each day.

Mary said...

Liza, learning to say NO is tough. But when I do say NO, I won't dwell on it. I'll just go take a walk.

Dorothy, it's great that you stopped by! Being a new birder is so much fun and there's so much to learn. I still screw up IDs but keep trying. I'm glad you visited today. You are always welcome!

mon@rch said...

Love the Dickinson poem along with the wonderful photo! The bluebird shots are stunning and so glad other birds are visiting the feeder! Keep up the great work!

Cathy said...

I meant to comment on the sunrise picture. We have to stop and pause whenever we see the Sun coming up (or going down) behind winter trees. It's impossible to look away.